Oh My God...you left your job...Why????

Oh ! Oh !....You are so qualified...why arent you working full time???

Well..yeah right...! Thank you for letting me know,,,,

Just that its not necessary to clarify or defend...it definitely is necessary to talk what it actually is.
So it all started right there from school....being a really illustrious student...always being watched and being in a competitive environment where the bar was always raised...it was natural to win or at least try to win in every arena...academics, debates, extempore, Quizzing and so on. I was soaking in my fame..that when reality hit it really hard...Had to move cities for greener pastures, minus family. So I was thrown into this sea of nerds . Homesick , confused, culture confused, identity crisis ...everything came and stopped by me. It took almost 2.5 years to embrace reality. Anyways I never was a rebel by nature. Still I managed a scholarship in high school..fighting all odds...because of academic records.

Bang ! College life....new friends,,,happy hours....co curricular stuff, seminars, Emceeing, projects, event management..and so on....been there ..and done that. And then by fag end of college..having a job offer and decent grades and a great staff room rapport....I met this man under parental guidance and he asked for marriage. I married his family and then him :P

It was great with work and my family and a very loving husband and an awesome family. Then came Tejasvi and with him came a huge responsibility...he was watching me...aping me....seeking me always...and then I took the brave decision to quit work. Fortunate was I, my HR guys referred me to many companies who gave me assignments to work from home. And I was loving my walks and time with my Teju. Then it was time....Yashasvi came into our world..( though under medical pressure...we brought him into this world)....it was easy to manage two than one. Like they say two is company... And they are growing up together....and seldom need my policing.....

So, the surprises...I managed two certifications from Sloan and Stanford and then later on a PGPM from Stanford....and am not bragging but my world , my learning did not really halt....my spouse supported me and made sure my learning did not stop ever.
There have been certain moments...when I have yearned for " Me " time but when I see my accomplishments and my boys....I feel a sense of closure....closure because....I have not left loose ends untied.

A dear friend once said...." to continue work is easy...to leave it and find options to alternately earn is brave"...I am proud that I have been brave...I have been able to get back to being an art enthusiast and crafting. Believe me...I have had my share of romance, love, freaky days, party and whatever it takes to get the so called 'enjoyment'.
I studied, I work, I manage kids, My family, Elders, Errands and when I hit the bed....I hear the music of silence and accomplishment.
This is not a self appraisal but..seriously!!!when I look back...I see this....and am loving it...so thank you so much for all the sympathies....I really do not need it....

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